confronting myself

Last night I had to do some soul searching and some life changin’. I’m happy to be along for the ride on that.

So far today, I’ve really gotten a handle on getting past my frustration and actually dealing with the problems at hand. The reality is that I am blaming myself for a lot of the problems going on at the church when in fact only some of them are my fault. I can only fix what I can fix. But I am already starting to fix some of the broken things from my post below.

I had a great time today at the school. I purposefully sought out students on my list. I connected with them, and I listened to them. Some of my students are really hurting becasue of stuff LF (and me) have done to them. I can clearly see that I have a lot of work to do. More than that, I can see that all of our leadership team needs to “get back to basics” on the contact front. We’ve just let that slide and we’re paying for it now.

I’m really looking at this as a good “starting over” point. Maybe I even need to evaluate taking a step back from the equipping aspects of LF and get back into the building phase. Before I do that I’m going to have to chat with some gurus. This painful soulsearching may actually be a part of the maturation process for me as a leader and us as a group.