Category: hmm… thoughts

  • Crack the Whip

    It’s been a long weekend of relaxing, movies, swimming, fireworks, and wasting time. I realize this is high time in Romeo for "doing nothing" but it’s time for me to get back into my routine.

    We’ve got Light Force tonight. It’s good to come together and concentrate a little here and there over the summer. I don’t think I have any adult leaders except Kristen and I (and Dave)… but it will be fine.

    All of this, while not coming out that well, is me grasping at my task. My task is not now, nor has ever been, to be merely a social director or "a friend" to students. My task is to reach and disciple students in the name of Jesus Christ in this community. I’ve not been distracted from that task… it’s just sometimes hard to see through the forest of summer.

  • Daily Show on Video Games

    More proof that Congress has absolutely no idea what the average American is like. There is so much stupidity and racism in this clip… I don’t even know where to start. Well, let’s start with it being funny.

  • Livin La Vida Loca

    As I look back on the last few days I see monster days with monster accomplishments. As I look at today and the week ahead I see more monster days in the aims of more monster accomplishments.

    Big personal stuff. Big family stuff. Big projects at la inglesia loca. Big stuff for wrapping up the big building project. Right now live is just big and monsterous.

    The amazing thing for me is that normally when my life is monster-like I have a hard time seeing what God is doing. I long to catch my breath, to run up the proverbial mountain for a break. But right now that is not the case.

    This happens rarely, but it is clear to see by a lot of people what God is doing. We are not left questioning the unknown, for once we see it with our own eyes. God is at work, He is orchestrating amazing things for His glory. He has brought the right people together at the right time for this church. He is bringing in more people, more helpers. Kristen and I aren’t running at break neck speed for no reason… we’re just trying to keep up with all that God has laid at our feet.

    How cool is that? Thank you Jesus for allowing us to partner with you when you don’t even need us.

  • Is God Bound by Rationalism?

    For the past several weeks I’ve been involved in a discussion about the DaVinci Code. This has been intruiging but what’s been even better for me is the intellectual discussions that it tends to bring out.

    Here’s what I mean. Often someone will say "Because the Bible says this and the Bible also says that, it is confusing." Generally, they are pointing out some sort of contradiction. Such as, "How can God exist in three forms and not be polytheistic?" (Many gods as opposed to a Judaic Christian view of monotheism) On the surface, and by deductive reasoning… it seems like a contradiction because it IS a contradiction. Another example. "How is it that Jesus was both fully God and fully man?" This seems like a contradiction because it IS a contradiction. In Bible school we were always taught that these weren’t contradictions… they were difficulties. As if acknowledging something as "weird in our eyes" somehow lessoned the truths of Scripture?

    See, this is my frustration point. Thinking rationally we know that 2+2=4. No one would argue that this isn’t true. So, the same type of thinking is applied to something like the doctrine of the trinity. 1+1+1=3 gods, right? Wrong! 1+1+1= 1 God. But that makes no sense, right? Wrong. It makes perfect sense if you see that God exists outside of the realms of rationalism. Eh? The Westminster Shorter Cathecism says, God is Spirit, infinite, eternal, and unchangeable, in His being, wisdom, power, holiness, goodness, justice, and truth.

    Inside rationalism is a basic "rule" that contradictions, or apparent contradictions, are bad. A contradiction proves that something is broken. If gravity is a constant and something doesn’t over gravity… there must be some sort of aberration causing gravity to not work at a constant. While that may be perfectly acceptable within Science, this isn’t fair to attribute to all areas of the Bible.

    Why? First off… the Bible pre-dates the existence of rationalism as a school of thought. Even Paul said, in a very rationalistic way… At least 15 times the Apostle Paul talked about "the mystery" of our relationship with Christ. Why? Because it makes no logical sense! Think of Acts 2… people saw the Resurrection as such a mystery that they thought Peter must be drunk.

    The fatal flaw in many people’s faith is that their rationalistic epistemology will not allow God to be infinitely smarter than they are. Continental rationalism teaches that ALL truth can be known to man. This simply flies against the very nature of God and improperly espouses infinite understanding on finite man.

    This is no excuse for us to stop searching for understanding. But, now check this out, it should comfort us to know that even if we understood every single thing God reveals about Himself to us in His word… we still wouldn’t know all there is to know about God.

    What? That’s right, God is infinite. The Bible isn’t. There are things that God knows that we don’t need to know that He chose not to tell us about. So, the Bible itself is limited to what God chose to allow us to understand.

    But as for the Bible. Yeah, James makes it clear we are called to understand, obey, and live up to all that we know from God’s Word.

    Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But
    the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and
    continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it—he
    will be blessed in what he does.

  • Evaluate everything?

    I’ve been "thought silent" for several weeks. It’s not that I don’t have anything worth writing about, it’s just that time of year when I am having a hard time holding a thought long enough to have a complete thought worth writing down.

    Evaluate and justify everything. For those who know me, this has been a mantra of mine over the last several years. I am annoyed that few ministries really learn from their successes and failures, and so I tend to over analyze everything in my own ministry.

    At the core of this evaluate everything mentality is it’s logical conclusion. I always say to myself , "If something isn’t working, stop feeding it." That simply means that if we are investing our time and energy into something with specific goals and we are not reaching those goals, or are reaping the wrong benefits… then we need to think about not doing it any more.

    Of course, this goes beyond numeric goals. It’s not like because youth group isn’t growing or Sunday school is growing that we need to stop doing it. Afterall, a ministry could be accomplishing all of it’s goals and actually grow smaller. Why? Because people aren’t a business… heck, even in business you can do everything "right" and not grow numerically. Even in business there are times when you actually get healthier by getting smaller. Just ask General Motors.

    This isn’t a new thought for me. For a long time I’ve thought this way and there are many things we aren’t doing in Light Force because they got "evaluated out." Retreats. Small groups. Regular small service projects.  They all got "cut" because the effort/expense got outweighed by their benefits. It’s normal and healthy for any ministry to do this… even with things that are working somewhere else.

    This is my new thought. Some of the best stuff in ministry is a complete waste of resources. What? That’s right. Some of the "best stuff" that we are doing is, goal speaking, utterly unremarkable. In fact, there are things that aren’t going well, have high impact, and have butchered their goals like ordering a steak at Wendy’s. Make sense out of that? We can’t… but we know we’re onto something…

    Should those things be cut? Well, no. But it’s hard to justify "wasting time" and "wasting resources" when most of the good stuff happening is merely incidental. Afterall, can life change really be "bad" when it is happening "by accident?"

    Bigger thought question:
    Is this "evaluate everything" mentality even good for ministry in general? Does everything have to be justifiable? What about _____?

  • A serious case of the munchies

    I saw this on the CNN website. Imagine going to Home Depot and getting some new cabinets for your kitchen. You know the routine… the husband has the truck purring outside and wants to get in and out. But the wife spends an extra 2 hours forcing you to look at 7,000 different pull handles for them. You finally complete the purchase, get home and unwrap them… and this happens:

    A contractor late last week discovered two 50-pound "bricks" of
    marijuana wrapped in plastic bags inside a bathroom vanity he had
    purchased at a Home Depot store in Tewksbury, said Chief of Detectives
    Lt. Dennis Peterson.

    The estimated street value of the marijuana is around $145,000, Peterson said.

    Similar incidents have occurred in other parts of the state. [Read the rest of the story]

    So, I know some people who wouldn’t have called the cops. I’m just having fun with this, but I was wondering if they found a couple bags of empty Doritos in the contractors truck?

  • DaVinci Code and the Bible

    Last night I was charged with leading our DVC small group. Here’s a snapshot of the notes. Go to the extended version of this post to get the FULL MONTY.

    What’s at stake? If the world is convinced that the Bible is
    not reliable, than the core beliefs of Christianity can be ignored.

    1. Did

      Constantine

      influence the New Testament Canon?

    2. Are the Gnostic documents discovered
           at Nag Hammadi historically accurate?
    3. Who are Gnostics and what do they
           believe?

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  • Goodbye 20’s

    So I’m learning this little tradition from my 5 year old daughter. Before she turned 5 she went through and listed all the great things she did while she was 4. So, as today goes I’d like to provide my own rendition and recount the good things about my 20’s.

    Goodbye 20
    -Having a job at the Logan Center in South Bend was great, this was my first true "big boy job" as I filled in for 6 months as the HR person.
    – Living with my dad one last time.
    – Getting engaged to Kristen right before a Neal Diamond concert at the United Center in Chicago
    – Working as a volunteer youth worker with Dan Schmidt at Trinity Evangelical Free Church in South Bend
    – Working at a golf course
    – Finally serving as a camp counselor, ful-filling that lifelong dream at Timber-lee in East Troy, WI
    – Finishing my sophomore year at Moody Bible Institute. 2 F’s and I quit, never to return.

    Goodbye 21
    – Getting married
    – Having our first place on LaSalle
    – Get our child substitute cat, Kelly
    – Kristen graduating from MBI
    – Our first "real jobs" where I started working at BlueCross and Kristen worked briefly at a design firm before being hired at Home Physicians

    Goodbye 22
    – Kristen got our Camry on her 22nd birthday
    – We moved to Hoyne in Ukrainian Village
    – We became members of Calvary Memorial Church

    – I started teaching 4th grade Sunday School

    Goodbye 23

    – We backpacked in the UP’s Porcupine Mountains.

    – Spent another vacation in California for two weeks in San Jose.

    More later

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  • Humidity

    HumidityThe last 3-4 days have been extremely humid. It’s the type of humidity that is just sticky and uncomfortable and makes you want to stay inside in the air conditioning.

    At the same time I’m feeling humid. I’m sticky and hot and uncomfortable in a lot of areas of my life. For some reason I’m not having a great week and the deeper we get into this week the more humidity I feel.

    A cold front is the solution. Not sure what that means yet, but if you look at humidity meterologically, a cold front helps.

    Hehehe… I can see how someone could look back on the last few days of posting and go "Holy cow, Adam is in some serious angst." Nah, it’s just me and my stupid thoughts. I’m cool. I even got a hit last night in the softball game. We lost, but I felt less stupid playing.

  • Why Pastors Leave the Ministry

    I ran across this and thought it was worth thinking on some more. (Thanks to Todd Rhodes for finding it) It’s written by a pastor who is not currently pastoring, but healing:

    “many people have asked me why i am
    stepping out of pastoring, at least for a while. there has been a great
    deal of conjecture on my behalf. some think it has a subversive twist
    to it. others imagine that i am absolutely distraught with life and
    cannot cope anymore. neither extreme really addresses the central
    issues i have faced. here are a few of the reasons why some of us tend
    to fade away:

    we are tired of pretending that we cannot be hurt.
    people assume ministers are available for their criticism 24/7. people
    say things to clergy they would not say to their worst enemies. for
    some reason they feel at liberty to delve into every aspect of clergy
    life. they have an opinion about everything we do. they believe it is
    their god-given right to critique your personal life, your professional
    life, your emotional state, the way you dress, your use of
    colloquialisms, your kids, your personality, how much you spend on a
    car, your friendships, how you drive, how much you fart, the list goes
    on and on. pastors live their life in the limelight. they, therefore,
    constantly disappoint people. it is hard to disappoint people all the
    time. as a pastor, and maybe it is just me, i seem to let people down
    all the time. recently i was at a small group where several complained
    that i was not their close friend. besides the obvious fact that i do
    not have enough hours in the day nor the emotional energy to be friends
    with everyone, let alone friendly, how can you assume i would would
    want to be your close friend? ministers spend their entire life
    pretending to like a portion of the population that they really cannot
    stand…

    pastors tend to build up that insecurity the longer they
    work. they feel the pressure to put numbers on the role, they also
    realize that people leave the church because of them. that is a heady
    responsibility to bear. they understand that people don’t like them but
    it still hurts when they have people they have invested in leave the
    church because of them. this life can be an exercise in guilty and
    humility. everything that happens which is good is "to god be the
    glory" …they know who is to blame if things go bad. add to this that
    for some reason many churches rise and fall on the health and
    exuberance of their pastor. after a while pastors tend to jump from one
    quick fix solution to another in a desperate bid to patch holes that
    are systemic and often metaphysical. they attend conferences and
    clinics designed to point out their flaws and obvious solutions. they
    quickly conclude that they are the problem, the issue, and the
    solution. they develop a messiah complex. they develop an insecurity
    complex…

    ministers are normal people who struggle with laziness
    and workaholism at the same time. no one knows what they do during the
    week so they tend to strive too hard to be noticed or duck out when
    they can get away with it. they realize that some volunteers do more
    than they do and it drives them crazy. they vassalate between the drive
    to do everything and the need to let others do the work of the church.
    they are control freaks, often out of necessity. sometimes out of ego
    need.

    oh ya, and we love to be compared. compared to huge
    churches with massive budgets and incredible bands. compared to tv
    evangelists who spend more on dog food than we will see in a year.
    compared to amazing speakers, incredible entrepeneurs, and holy monkish
    nerds who can pray more than we can. that kind of stuff makes us very
    content.

    ya this is a whine but it’s my blog and you don’t have
    to read it. perhaps, though, there may be a grain of truth in what you
    have read. take a look at your pastor if you have one. listen to his or
    her brokenness strewn in amongst the exterior confidence. let them know
    you don’t need anything from them. shut up about them when others
    encourage you to spill. tell someone else to shut up occasionally.
    don’t phone them on mondays. don’t critique the way they dress when
    they go to the bank on their day off. don’t act amazed when they stumble. we all stumble.

    but for God’s sake, don’t feel sorry for them. they chose this life and it has incredible rewards. just pay them more.

    and
    oh ya, they won’t believe you when you praise them but they will obsess
    when you criticize them. sounds like quite a great life huh? makes you
    want to join right up i bet…

    as for me, i’m just taking a
    break to get out of the fishbowl for a while. it’s a calling – a
    blessing and a curse. of course now i have to get a real job where
    people have to get up every morning and put in 8 hours and pretend to
    care about stuff i never imagined caring about before.”

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