This may shock some people, but to others who do what I do… they’ll know what I mean. On Wednesday night at Light Force, while I was doing the talk, I had some swirling thoughts going on. Nothing revolutionary altogether… but a revelation nonetheless.
Background: Part of this thing I’ve coined the "One church model" has meant that I use my talents where they are most needed in the church… and that has meant doing less youth ministry for the good of the whole ministry. Such as, I lead an adult small group, not a student one. I create and develop a monthly outreach for the kids ministry, not Light Force. I spend a lot of energy making Sunday morning’s worship service great, but a little time and energy preparing for Wednesday night. On and on. What it means as a youth guy is that I’m not doing a lot of what I love… spending countless hours with students and investing in them directly. Instead, I spend a little time doing that while doing all these other things. In all honesty… since August I haven’t "felt" much like a youth pastor. At least not in the traditional "youth pastor" mode.
So this is what’s going on in my head while I’m doing the talk.
1. I’m not bad at this youth ministry thing.
2. I kind of like being around these people.
3. I want to keep doing this for a long time.
Not earth shattering, but that’s what was going on in my head Wednesday night during the talk. For the first time in a few months I went home hopeful about what God can/will do with Light Force.
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