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  • two things

    I know, the line from City Slickers is “one thing” but I really have two major things that I have to do today.

    1. I simply must get some work done on my paper for my class. It is very, very late now. I would call it obscenely late but I am Baptist and we don’t do anything obscene.
    2. Our family needs a Christmas tree. It’s getting to the point where we have to do it. Likewise, if we are going to cut one down there is always the reality that if we wait too long all the good ones will be gone.

    Those are my tasks for the day. I’d be happy with a 50% completion rate on those.

  • mary and joseph in Light Force?

    No, I don’t have a pregnancy scandal in the youth group! At least not one that I know of.

    This is a thought that I’ve been having for a few days. It’s not profound or life-altering, but it does speak volumes about where we are at as a youth group and a church.

    What would happen if Mary and Joseph of the bible were really Mary Smith and Joe Johnson the kids of prominent people at First Baptist?



    I have some initial thoughts. I think I would get canned in the long run. Especially if it was discovered that the relationship was being helped along by the youth group and it’s trips or if I knew there wa a relationship but didn’t get the parents involved.

    pretty intriguing isn’t it? God does something that completely changes the lives of two crazy kids… But also will change all of mankind, and the youth pastor loses his job. Thanks God!

    That’s the most extreme scenario. But what are others?

    * The church accepts Mary/Joseph’s words and believes that it is an act of God. I can’t see this as happening, but it is a scenario worth mentioning.

    * I don’t get fired, but I get mentally fired and have years of unfruitful ministry to follow in the shadows of this controversy.

    * The church has lots of questions but still opens their arms to Mary/Joseph and accepts and supports them.

    Of course, I set it up so the last option would be the “best” community option.

    But it does lead to a bigger thought… How would we respond to something that seemed like such a tragedy? Is Light Force/First Baptist the type of community that is prepared to accept “messy” people?God, I hope that You well up such compassion and action in our students that they would lead the change process to their parents and the people of our church. God, only you can change these people’s hearts and attitudes.

  • blogging blues

    Lately I’ve been exploring students blogs on Live Journal. It seems that in this community that Xanga and Blogger are not nearly as popular with students as Live Journal. Perhaps it is how easily they link and have friend communities?

    At any rate, I have been appalled at what I read. I knew students went through stress in adolescence. But I’ve gotten exposed to it in whole new ways. For one thing, they share their innermost thoughts and their friends comment on it. For another thing, they are struggling with real issues. Sexual dysfunction, self-esteem, depression, on and on and on. It is clear that they are wrestling and losing… But they are also completely disconnected with their parents.

    A parent tends to treat the surface issue rather than the underlying problem. A student writes in her blog, “I feel so fat and ugly, I wish I were dead. I told my mom but she just took me shopping for clothes that didn’t make me feel fat.” It makes me want to leap through the keyboard and slap a parent! How can they be so blind? Have they no empathy? Do they not see that their children are really suffering? Do they really think that this solves the problem?

    I am often left to wonder if a parent doesn’t see it or doesn’t want to see it.

  • ouch! clerical error may cost me

    Yesterday I made a transfer of funds over to cover some incoming debits on the McLane Family checking account. Well, I was horrified this morning when my card was rejected at our morning bible study. What went wrong? Had Kristen spent a lot of money and not told me?

    It seems that the transfer I made yesterday took money out of checking instead of savings. So while I thought I had made things better I had made them worse! Terribly worse.

    There seems to be a habit with vendors that they hold submitting payments on debits cards for up to a week. This normally doesn’t matter, but in this case it hit us for a total of 6 overdraft fees. Being that National City boosted their overdraft fees to $30 each, this hits us with a charge of $180! I simply have no way to absorb that during the holidays.

    I already contacted the bank to see what they can do. If they won’t do anything, I’ll probably leave the bank over it. It’s one thing to charge me a small fee for making a mistake. But $180! No way. If they can’t get it down to nothing or maybe one fee we are leaving there.

    The big thing is that I am certain I didn’t do it wrong. I’ve transferred funds dozens of times without making that mistake. Anything is possible, but I am about 85% certain I didn’t mess up.

  • What will happen to the Christmas tree farmer?

    I was thinking about the poor Christmas tree farmers today and wondering about their fate. Sales are down for real trees while artificial trees are becoming more and more popular. Of the 70 million Christmas trees that will be put up in homes across our land today, about 60% of them will be fake. Sales for fake trees have been increasing 40% per decade!

    If I were a Christmas tree farmer I would be very worried. Not only for the huge financial impact that would have on me, but also for the environmental impact. There are currently 1 million acres of land being farmed for Christmas trees. Scientist say that an acre of Christmas trees can supply 18 people with oxygen for a day. Not that this would happen, but if all 1 million acres were dedicated to parking lots we would lose oxygen that could support 18 million people.

    What about the financial impact? Obviously, this means that times are tough for tree farmers. There are 5,000 Christmas tree farms in the United States and the industry employs roughly 100,000 Americans. This is a job lose issue as well. Families are choosing to buy something that is not a renewable resource (plastic tree) and this has impact on the little guy. Wal*Mart makes the profit by selling plastic trees from South Korea, Hong Kong, and China.

    The normal American response is that these farmers need to adapt. Just like many soybean farmers have adjusted by starting to grow sod, the same could be said for tree farmers as they will need to find another cash crop to replace the unwanted product. What doesn’t work about that line of thought is that in many corners of America Christmas trees are being grown in places where other crops fail.

    This is starting to look like I am being persuasive, but it is all part of a creative exercise to ask the question: What will the tree farmer do? What will his life be like when Americans get away from tradition and buy cheap, plastic, Chinese Christmas trees.



    I am imagining a scene with a bitter old tree farmer still pruning his crops for the last few carloads of traditionalists who make their way to the Upper Peninsula to cut down the family Christmas tree. He is poor, angry, and sad that we have given up something beloved for something cheap and easy. In some ways the farmer is compulsively optimistic while at the same time he daily deals with the realities of his life.

    As we hover over this quaint scene of a man lovingly clipping his trees, we glide towards his house. There are cars that are old. Work trucks with dry rotted tires. A barn with an old sign on it, long since unused. A small house with a broken porch. A mother in the kitchen, doing dishes. These are the same dishes from the glory days. It’s a simple life, a life they love. It is also a life that is hopeless and they are surrounded by debts and broken promises from our culture. Surely, the culture didn’t actually make a promise to them that they would sustain and reward them for providing their Christmas icon, but the feel betrayed.

    The old man is secretly bitter that his craft is fading away and going the way of the Dodo bird. “Convenience, no mess, no shopping” he thinks to himself. Those American ideals have destroyed his dreams. He thinks back to the boom years when families would drive a hundred miles for one of his trees. His sons would go south to Detroit and Chicago to sell the trees that they cut themselves. Those were fond times… But times long gone.

    The farmer wonders what will happen to his land. Will it become a forest or a Wal*Mart. Half of him cares while the others wishes someone would buy his land from him. These rows of pine and fir were a great place to raise a family. He taught his children to hunt here and remembers how the school bus engine would echo down the way to tell him it was time for them to come home from school.

    Like a lot of things, it seems like a million miles since then and a million years. The old parking lot that used to fill up on weekends is now used for nothing. He even has to cut the grass down since it is no longer trampled by minivans and station wagons.

    He could dwell on what could have been and what was. But he has work to do. A few families will surely be here in a little bit. Maybe they just got hung up at their breakfast. But surely they will come. They always do.

    He waits, and he dreams, and he hopes. He checks his watch. It’s time for lunch now, so he goes in for some soup.

  • back to work

    I know, it’s been a day or two since I’ve posted. Shame on me. I broke the streak. I broke that streak in honor of Brett Favre.

    After all the hectic running around last week I am happy to have a normal week. No birthdays. No parties. No babysitting. Just a normal week with youth group, lunches with students, and a lunch with the staff.

    Only thing exciting about this week is that the cat is supposed to get fixed. It’s a good thing since the cat is in heat. There’s a male cat hanging out in front of the house wanting something. Yuck, cat sex lives are dumb.

  • Project outline

    Even though I haven’t gotten to work on this much today. Having an outline does help!

    Creating an Environment for Student Leadership Development



    I. Introduction

    II. Survey of Ministry models with student leadership component

    a. PDYM

    b. Sonlife

    c. DASH

    III. Survey of Christ’s leadership environment

    a. Jewish cultural influences

    b. Contextualizing this for modern ministry

    IV. Survey of leadership development in the New Testament church

    a. Jewish/gentile culture wars

    b. Contextualizing this to generational differences between adolescent culture and adult culture

    V. Biblical elements transferable to student ministry environment to incubate student leader development

  • light force website relaunched

    I finally had a good day to sit down and redo the LF website with a fresh new template. It’s much more than a revision… but it isn’t as far as I’d like to see it go either. I wish there were some ways to intergrate all that I want to do into one page. But that costs more money than I can spend right now for the group.

    Also, fairly soon I will be buying the site light-force.com or .org for the youth group. I think it can be hosted with the same host as a sub-domain without being a problem.

    I’m currently working on some bugs that I didn’t notice until I got some complaints. I hate that. Thought I clicked on everything.

  • secretly working on my day off

    Don’t tell anyone, but I am here at the office working on a paper. Surely, I could have done the same thing at home in the basement. Yet it is so peaceful and quiet right now in the office, plus I have all my books nice and handy.

    As I look at my outline I can see that I might not finish it today. Likewise, since it is only supposed to be 6-8 pages long I might have to take some of my lines of thought out. I’ll be posting the outline soon as well as some draft work.

  • church work: the worst places to work in America

    Editor’s note: Obviously, today was a stressful day filled with stress. This is a venting place for me. Never meant to be seen by another person. I wouldn’t ever say these things out of respect for the church, my position, and my Boss. These words are merely a response to the stress of my day.

    I’ve said this since the very beginning and it remains true today. Working as a pastor in a church is one of the harshest and best environments at the same time. I feel like I have to constantly justify myself daily. I could have worked the day before for 20 hours on countless projects both in support of my ministry and outside of my ministry… But there will always be someone who questions “what is it that you do?”

    I don’t desire to be held in super high esteem. I don’t desire to never have my actions questioned or be treated as though I am beyond examination. What I do expect is a certain level of dignity given to me as well as some respect.

    Unfortunately, I was reminded again that even leaders in the church do not respect me or the work I do with their children. They seemingly don’t see what I do as “work” and feel the need to say “are you worth the money?” No, I am only worth what others who voted say I am worth for a certain job function. No, I cannot redefine myself to suit the whims of boards or individuals. I am who God has made me.

    I swear, it is only by the grace of God and His leading in my life that I don’t look at those people and simply say… You are right. I am a waste of a person. I don’t know what I am here. Since you don’t think it is important, why don’t you just fire me?